this isn't like some longstanding weird stalker fetish shit, right?
you didn't sit around on the stoop of his apartment for months secretly pining over him and now that he's your boyfriend and you're in his house, you're gonna like turn him into a lampshade or something?
because he really doesn't have time to deal with bullshit like that right now.
i'm sorry, is that not a legitimate enough fucking question to the person who my brother randomly decided to pick up and is now dating or something?
do you have siblings? they're probably not like elliot, so excuse me for worrying about the shit he gets himself into every now and then. not saying you're a bad kid, or you're gonna take advantage of him, or whatever stupid accusations you're making from that question. crazier shit has happened to him before, you being some weird stalker would probably be the most normal thing to have happened to him lately.
yeah, okay, you're right. i have no family at all so i don't get where you're coming from right now, but i'm gonna get real with you again for a second here
- i'm not a stalker. i'd never been to chinatown before that DAY - i'm homeless because my parents skipped town leaving me in the city alone when i turned 12 - because i'm a mutant - pyrokinesis - (it's more than some stephen king bullshit, i can explain if you want) - no, mutants don't go into the system when that happens if they have any sense because no human "systems" like us, not fucking one of them - yes, this shit happens all the time. all. the. time. we run away, get kicked out, get abused to within an inch of our lives and then one of those two happens, or this. they just fuck off one night - elliot's the first person who's ever done something for me without wanting anything back or just because he had to or to feel better about himself - he's the first person who's ever really given a shit about me even being there, never mind what happens to me - he's the best fucking person i've ever known - if i hurt him in any way, you'll be the first person i call so you can come kill me for it, cause everyone before him will have been right about me
[ A long stretch of time passes before she replies. Probably too long. ]
here i thought the only thing you were hiding from me was the boyfriend part. wow.
jokes aside, i appreciate the honesty, you're just slightly less of an annoying little shit now. at least you've got a good reason why you act like a prick all the time.
[ Didn't she say all jokes aside? Oh well. That's Darlene. ]
he's the best person i've ever known too. he's really special and really important. not just to me, but to everything. if you and him are going to be a thing, then you better take care of him.
i mean, i'll make sure you both don't starve, or run out of toilet paper and toothpaste. but i'm gonna hold you responsible for everything else, and i'll personally beat your face in and rip your balls off with my bare hands if you end up hurting him ever.
he knows by the way. that i'm a mutant and what happened with my parents. he actually tracked them down for me, they've got a new life in australia, where my dad's family moved here from. i'm really happy for them :) :) :)
and i know how everything i said sounded but it's not just about what he does for me either
[Good god, this is uncomfortable. He's shaking on his end of the conversation, thumbs slipping all over the screen of his phone. At least she didn't come and chase him out of the apartment for good like he half-expected, but all this sharing is making him queasy.
It's worth it. Just really, really uncomfortable.]
didn't i tell you ages ago that i just wanna wrap a goddamn blanket around him all the time? of course i'll take care of him
i don't. we've all got things we wanna hide, for whatever reasons; keeping others safe, or because we're ashamed of them, or just because we don't care to have anyone know anything about us. the kinds of people who are an open book from the start unsettle me.
good. i'd rather you were keeping the whole thing from me, than keeping the entire thing from him. he's always been really oddly selfless like that, wanting to help people just because... like he's some corny fucking superhero, or something. i don't get it, him and i are just different like that, he's better than i am. he's got a good heart.
just don't follow that statement up with 'it's what he does to me.' i REALLY don't need that kind of imagery while i'm trying to enjoy chipotle.
do you HAVE to make this harder when it's already the hardest thing i've ever done? i get the urge and all, we both know i have it too, but come on. cut me one break here
and i'm not ashamed for the record. they're the assholes here. i'm protecting myself when i don't tell people, cause the other way i can protect myself if they turn on me would kill them, and i don't actually wanna do that
maybe you haven't noticed yet, but i take a lot of pleasure in making things harder for you. call it my hobby, if you want.
i know, it doesn't really seem like your style to be ashamed of something like that. people are dicks, they can go fuck themselves. self preservation, that's what motivates a lot of us. what's that old phrase? what they don't know can't hurt em?
i stopped trying to understand him a long time ago. it's easier to think 'that's just elliot' than to try and figure it out.
something happened awhile back and i did a really shitty job of helping him out cause i just didn't expect it. i didn't even know what was going on at first
like i didn't make it worse, i think, i hope, but i didn't make it any better. and he mostly just told me not to get involved when he came down but how the fuck do i just leave him like that?
when he starts seeing the people that aren't there
She'd stupidly thought that maybe Elliot had stopped seeing him. Mr. Robot, as he calls him. But she'd witnessed him coming to the surface more than enough times, coaxed him out when she thought she needed him instead of Elliot -- her brother claiming that he was the real mastermind in the plan they had created.
Her hands are shaking. How does she explain something she hardly understands? ]
there's only one person. he's.... it's a long story. sometimes there's just another person elliot becomes. sometimes he's aware of it and sometimes this other person completely takes over. he's the exact opposite of elliot, and still exactly the same as elliot. they do amazing things when they're working together. they're both fucking genius. but lately he fights with him a lot, he doesn't want him there anymore or... i don't know, really.
there's nothing really you can do, elliot has to figure it out on his own. everybody has demons and shit inside of them, he's just more aware of his. just be there for him when he comes back to himself.
Edited (i will stop forgetting words, i swear.) 2016-09-17 05:20 (UTC)
yeah. well, it is probably best if you don't. there's a lot of shit going on there that you don't wanna get caught up in...
yeah, i know what he sounds like i know what he looks like, it's not really a pretty thing to watch. but if you try talking to him, you're not really gonna be talking to him, you know? it's not gonna sink in and get to elliot and even if it does... he's really persuasive
elliot used to trust him a lot, i don't know if he does anymore. it's been a while since i've seen him.
for god's sake, i'm being serious i just dunno what else to say. it's not about me. i just wanted to understand better and he obviously didn't want to tell me any more
well, it's 50/50 with you, how the hell am i supposed to know?!
i probably shouldn't have told you much more either, but... if you and him are going to be a thing, then you deserve a little more than just elliot's shitty explanation of it, or him doing that thing where he tells you not to worry about something that you're obviously already worrying about.
no, i understand. it's kinda.. weird to see it happening. scary, even. and sometimes.. i don't know, i wonder if he's completely switched over and i didn't even notice it...
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it's elliot
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okay.
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you didn't sit around on the stoop of his apartment for months secretly pining over him and now that he's your boyfriend and you're in his house, you're gonna like turn him into a lampshade or something?
because he really doesn't have time to deal with bullshit like that right now.
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do you have siblings? they're probably not like elliot, so excuse me for worrying about the shit he gets himself into every now and then.
not saying you're a bad kid, or you're gonna take advantage of him, or whatever stupid accusations you're making from that question. crazier shit has happened to him before, you being some weird stalker would probably be the most normal thing to have happened to him lately.
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- i'm not a stalker. i'd never been to chinatown before that DAY
- i'm homeless because my parents skipped town leaving me in the city alone when i turned 12
- because i'm a mutant
- pyrokinesis
- (it's more than some stephen king bullshit, i can explain if you want)
- no, mutants don't go into the system when that happens if they have any sense because no human "systems" like us, not fucking one of them
- yes, this shit happens all the time. all. the. time. we run away, get kicked out, get abused to within an inch of our lives and then one of those two happens, or this. they just fuck off one night
- elliot's the first person who's ever done something for me without wanting anything back or just because he had to or to feel better about himself
- he's the first person who's ever really given a shit about me even being there, never mind what happens to me
- he's the best fucking person i've ever known
- if i hurt him in any way, you'll be the first person i call so you can come kill me for it, cause everyone before him will have been right about me
okay?
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here i thought the only thing you were hiding from me was the boyfriend part. wow.
jokes aside, i appreciate the honesty, you're just slightly less of an annoying little shit now. at least you've got a good reason why you act like a prick all the time.
[ Didn't she say all jokes aside? Oh well. That's Darlene. ]
he's the best person i've ever known too. he's really special and really important. not just to me, but to everything. if you and him are going to be a thing, then you better take care of him.
i mean, i'll make sure you both don't starve, or run out of toilet paper and toothpaste. but i'm gonna hold you responsible for everything else, and i'll personally beat your face in and rip your balls off with my bare hands if you end up hurting him ever.
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he knows by the way. that i'm a mutant and what happened with my parents. he actually tracked them down for me, they've got a new life in australia, where my dad's family moved here from. i'm really happy for them :) :) :)
and i know how everything i said sounded but it's not just about what he does for me either
[Good god, this is uncomfortable. He's shaking on his end of the conversation, thumbs slipping all over the screen of his phone. At least she didn't come and chase him out of the apartment for good like he half-expected, but all this sharing is making him queasy.
It's worth it. Just really, really uncomfortable.]
didn't i tell you ages ago that i just wanna wrap a goddamn blanket around him all the time? of course i'll take care of him
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the kinds of people who are an open book from the start unsettle me.
good. i'd rather you were keeping the whole thing from me, than keeping the entire thing from him. he's always been really oddly selfless like that, wanting to help people just because... like he's some corny fucking superhero, or something. i don't get it, him and i are just different like that, he's better than i am. he's got a good heart.
just don't follow that statement up with 'it's what he does to me.' i REALLY don't need that kind of imagery while i'm trying to enjoy chipotle.
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and i'm not ashamed for the record. they're the assholes here. i'm protecting myself when i don't tell people, cause the other way i can protect myself if they turn on me would kill them, and i don't actually wanna do that
i don't get it either
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i know, it doesn't really seem like your style to be ashamed of something like that. people are dicks, they can go fuck themselves.
self preservation, that's what motivates a lot of us. what's that old phrase? what they don't know can't hurt em?
i stopped trying to understand him a long time ago. it's easier to think 'that's just elliot' than to try and figure it out.
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but i don't notice you giving a single shit that a mutant's dating your brother, so you're not bad either
darlene can i ask you something? about understanding him. it's
serious
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yeah, go ahead. what is it?
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like i didn't make it worse, i think, i hope, but i didn't make it any better. and he mostly just told me not to get involved when he came down but how the fuck do i just leave him like that?
when he starts seeing the people that aren't there
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She'd stupidly thought that maybe Elliot had stopped seeing him. Mr. Robot, as he calls him. But she'd witnessed him coming to the surface more than enough times, coaxed him out when she thought she needed him instead of Elliot -- her brother claiming that he was the real mastermind in the plan they had created.
Her hands are shaking. How does she explain something she hardly understands? ]
there's only one person. he's.... it's a long story.
sometimes there's just another person elliot becomes. sometimes he's aware of it and sometimes this other person completely takes over.
he's the exact opposite of elliot, and still exactly the same as elliot. they do amazing things when they're working together. they're both fucking genius.
but lately he fights with him a lot, he doesn't want him there anymore or... i don't know, really.
there's nothing really you can do, elliot has to figure it out on his own. everybody has demons and shit inside of them, he's just more aware of his. just be there for him when he comes back to himself.
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takes over
no i knew that, i knew that, he said not to talk to him cause it was too dangerous. i just didn't put it together
yeah, the fighting's what i saw. and i'm not judging him or anything, like hell i ever could with what goes on in my head.
but - you really have to just wait it out? he sounds so
[Tormented. It's fucking heart-wrenching.]
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yeah. well, it is probably best if you don't. there's a lot of shit going on there that you don't wanna get caught up in...
yeah, i know what he sounds like i know what he looks like, it's not really a pretty thing to watch.
but if you try talking to him, you're not really gonna be talking to him, you know? it's not gonna sink in and get to elliot and even if it does... he's really persuasive
elliot used to trust him a lot, i don't know if he does anymore. it's been a while since i've seen him.
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yeah alright, i'll stay out of it
just be there when it's done
thanks for telling me so much
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i can't tell if you're being serious
or if you're being a prick.
just saying.
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i just dunno what else to say. it's not about me. i just wanted to understand better and he obviously didn't want to tell me any more
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i probably shouldn't have told you much more either, but... if you and him are going to be a thing, then you deserve a little more than just elliot's shitty explanation of it, or him doing that thing where he tells you not to worry about something that you're obviously already worrying about.
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and don't worry, i'm not gonna come behind your back all the time and try to drag info out of you. this was just a big one
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no, i understand. it's kinda.. weird to see it happening. scary, even.
and sometimes.. i don't know, i wonder if he's completely switched over and i didn't even notice it...
i try not to think about it too much.